Seriously not happy right now. In fact, I'm somewhat distressed. See, I'm re-reading Charles DeLint's earliest collection of short stories as I'm on a kick of him (along with the hp madness of course). And I've discovered, now for the second time and in a more extreme way, that I've ripped off two character names, one a first name and another a last name that I had intended to use for numerous generations of characters in my stories. And no, the names are definitely not Sarah or Brown.

So I feel like a giant moron. I didn't mean for this to happen! Why must my subconscious mind be such a piece of shit irritation? I really don't want to change anything. I'm really happy with it. Or was. Do any of you think it's a problem?

When I told Matt, and once he was tired of my huffing and puffing sighing, he simply replied "Some famous writer guy once said "A rose with any other name"..." and left it at that. I really hope that that's the case. Because I love Charles DeLint. And if anyone has inspired me, he has. Someone even compared some of my writing to him. But this is just crushing.

Blargh...;(

I've had some goodness in the past few days. At work last week I traded a guy a cup of steamed soy mild for a print photograph. He looked like Santa Claus and was undeniably kooky but he had some really solid pieces and I was pretty excited to take one of them home (although I haven't yet because I keep forgetting it at work like a moron). He then took some photos of me (right in the store while I was working haha) and says he'll bring me in a print. So we'll see what happens there.

I finished my latin class! I had a horrible exam that, even though I studied, I still didn't completely get but I didn't fail or anything. I just couldn't answer a few questions. But at this point it's not about marks, it's about getting my goddamn degree already. ;P

I found out I am allergic to chamomile! How strange! I was bagging some for a man, spoon by spoon when all of a sudden I could NOT stop sneezing, my eyes were watery, my throat tight and itchy...it left me all dumbfounded and sniffly for the rest of my shift (thankfully it happened near the end). So yeah. Weird allergy there. I've drank the stuff before and it has always made my throat feel a little funny but I thought that's just what it was like. *shrugs*

I babysat my cousin Tim's son Dexter one night with Matt. Well Matt slept and I watched Dex play Spyro and then we watched part of the Mummy. It was fun because I could tell that Dexter loved being able to stay up late with me eating as much popcorn as possible and playing video games. ;) I'm a big softie for him.

I went out shopping with Robyn yesterday and she is the biggest sweetheart ever! She got me a jade plant for my birthday! I have one back in Red Deer that I couldn't bring because it had grown too large and I was quite sad not to have it. But now I have a new one! ;D Also she's treating me to the Bjork concert on the 23rd of May!!! She's such an amazingly nice friend! Me and Matt had dinnner with her and Adam last night as well and she made this awesome stuffed pork dinner. Mmm...and I helped! She also lent me her Jem and the Holograms DVDs a while ago and I LOVE IT!!! So obsessed haha! We're thinking of being Jem and Kimber for halloween so we'll see how that goes. ;P But yeah, super good times. I'm so glad that we met eachother. She's such a cool person. ;)


Oh and speaking of cool persons, my best friend from early elementary, Jody, found me on facebook! It's so exciting getting to talk to her again! We had some fun times her and I; watching too much Labyrinth, me pulling a lodged stone out of her knee, and having freckle contests. ;D

I'm having a really fulfilling and happy time lately. Now I just need to actually get our apartment semi-decent (right now it is in the minuses for decency), figure out wedding list crap (ugh), and get signed up for BC health care. You know, actually be responsible for things. And on that note, I'm out!

Your Birthdate: April 10

Independent and dominant, you tend to be the alpha dog in most situations. You're very confident, and hardly anything ever shakes you. Mundane tasks tend to drain you - you prefer to be making great plans. You are quite original. When people don't "get" you, it bothers you a lot. Your strength: Your ability to gain respect Your weakness: Caring too much what others think Your power color: Orange-red Your power symbol: Letter X Your power month: October

That's pretty much all I have to say. I've been doing basically nothing of note. Although I did spend most of Sunday reading Widdershins by Charles DeLint, a book that I had been so extremely excited to read and which Katie gave me for my birthday. <3 And it was everything I'd hoped it would be. *happy sigh*

Well back to my everyday mundanity.

So my Latin prof has just fucked me over. The class has been a real joke so far. I could take all the time I wanted to translate my homework. And the quizzes were mostly multiple guess which I'm very good at. Basically I haven't seriously read the text in a month because I have an intuitive sense of language and the homework was set up so simply.

And just now he's realized this and has decided to change the format of the last quiz and then my final next week. Now I have to not only translate stuff from Latin to English but also in the reverse (which I've never done) and there are no multiple choice. I take forever to do translating because I don't have an actual knowledge base and just look it up in the text. And it's timed. ;(

Have I ever mentioned that I have a ton of anxiety surrounding both exams and, particularly, timed exams!!! *shakes with stress*

And after this I have to go to work! ;( *cries*

I know it's all my fault but I hate this class, I hate university, I hate. I just thought I could coast by and get my fucking degree FINALLY. I'll still pass and all but I hate doing badly. Because I'm a priss. Grr...

edit- Also I am still sick. And all this talk about nominative clauses and antecedents is making my head just swim.

Thanks to everyone who wished my a happy birthday! So it's been quite a long time since I've made a substantial post. In fact looking back at the last real post I made I can't really remember much of what happened after that and before I went to Red Deer on the 4th. But I will fill in with some important general happenings.

An old school friend of Matt's, Joel, came to visit us for a couple days. It was pretty fun and we went out to Granville Island for a daytrip and then had dinner with him, Kat, and Mike. So good times. Me and Joel don't really have any sort of common ground whatsoever so I was impressed with how few awkward moments there were. Not that there weren't any though. ;P

I worked a few shifts at JJ Bean and things seem to be coming along nicely. I like the people I work with and am still feeling the good feelings. Unfortunately though I've been scheduled for almost all evening shifts (2:45-10:45) which is really not good, 1)Because I'm nervous about walking around what can be a bit of a rough neighbourhood and then waiting around at one of the skeeziest skytrain stations and 2)I get tired early because I'm lame. So this will be interesting. Hopefully I won't fall asleep at work and/or be attacked.

My sister got kicked out of Active Skalactic because Nate's brother doesn't like her and then Nate dumped her because he was being a complete asshole idiot. This broke her heart on the first weekend of April. Then Nate tried to get her back but Katie doesn't know if she can trust him. More on this in the rundown/highlights of my trip:

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And now after having spent an hour typing all of that I should get ready for work and put away the stuff from my trip! I feel kind of sick and really tired so today should be quite the time. Ugh. Oh but I joined facebook and I think I love it. So if you have one and are interested, add me! I'm the Lindsay Nault getting cuddles in my picture. ;P

It's my birthday! So give me love!! ;D

Ok, so I've been really sucking at lj lately by not being very commenty or posty. But I've been visiting family and doing a ton of stuff so you know! I've been reading as much as I can and I do care. Real post and activity soon!

Also...it is dumping soft fluffy snow all over the place here. Like more snow than I saw pretty much all winter. Is it strange that most of my birthdays have been such? I think so.

So yesterday was definitely an interesting one. We got up really early and headed out to be at the waterfront station for 8:30 model call. First we accidentally went into a posh hotel and then we found the convention centre right next to it. We'd forgotten our tickets but the people let us in anyways.

There were a million little setup stages but thank goodness ours (Paul Mitchell) was across from the door so we saw it right away. So we went over there and everything was a little crazy. I immediately had make-up done, which I was excited about because some of the models who had arrived earlier had really well done faces. But I ended up looking like a drag queen, I swear! She put purple eyeshadow on me with electric blue eyeliner, coloured my brows in a cool-toned darker colour (stupid!) and then proceeded to put so much blusher on me that I looked pink. Pink!! The dreaded colour I strive to avoid in my day to day make-up!! ;/// Also I had on dark pink lipstick which I kept wiping off and had to have her re-apply. Ugh...

So I really wasn't impressed with that from the get go as I thought I looked hideous (Matt said it wasn't that bad but he figured they really could have picked something to suit me more). But it was really sweet that while the make-up artist did my face a couple of the hairstylists (including Kim) hung around and they were all saying that I "had the look" and could easily get into some form of modelling. They said that I had the perfect blend of an unusual look with conventional beauty and I was very flattered.

Anyways, most of the day I didn't do too much. I sat around and chatted with some of the girls who were mostly really nice except for the one we all called "the diva" who ridiculously thought I was trying to make her look bad when I suggested which outfit she wear and later when lunch was brought to us stated "Ugh I don't want to eat anything I just need a fucking smoke!" and ran off. It was pretty funny. ;P Matt was the only guy there so he said it felt a bit awkward for him but he seemed to have a decent time. But he was overthinking everything and looked so nervous upstage as he got his hair done! It was really cute.

Basically when we weren't just sitting around talking and eating we were up on stage getting presented as the stylists cut, dyed or styled our hair. Matt said he felt like an object but I've been on stage more than him and done a few minor accounts of modelling type things so I didn't really care. Just kind of chilled out. Except I had to wear these ridiculous outfits (for some reason I was the only person to get costume changed from the demo outfit which was a ruffly white halter and black gouchos to the presentation outfit which was a denim and applique tank and skirt) plus really high high heels! In sizes much too big for me as my feet are size 5 1/2-6 1/2 depending on the shoe and the smallest shoes I could find were 7 1/2. And when it comes to too big high heels that is definitely NOT a good thing!

Our hair ended up alright. I miss Matt's flowy locks but he has this cute kind of 70s do like Eric Forman's but longer and they put some lighter blond streaks in. They dyed my hair dark violet red. Which is alright. I miss my natural colour I must say but it'll grow out. At least it looks good with my normal makeup, something I tested out right after I had my shower yesterday. And I took a couple pictures for you guys!

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I'm going to try and get around to re-dreading it today as all that crap they did to it yesterday left it in extra shambles. Ugh...but overall it was a pretty fun experience. Definitely something different that I can add to the random things I have done list! ;D

And now I had to go get dressed, do laundry and desperately try to neaten up the apartment before I have to leave for my lamest shift ever of 3:30-11:30pm at Starbucks. Because Joel is coming to visit us and I'd like it to be vaguely pleasant for him to sleep here. ;P

I had a really satisfying Saturday! It was my first day at JJ Bean and I thought it was all really great. Very laid back attitude and funky people with lots of yummy stuff to eat and drink. Like home-baked stuff not just silly Starbucks store food. Also I saw about a bazillion people with dreads. Just tons and lots of white girls like me which I hadn't really seen much of! Most of them had beautifully long and tight dreads that were just gorgeous. I was envious. ;P I think I'm really going to like working there. It seems like a really great place for me. I'm already making friends I think. ;)

So tomorrow is the hair show. And here I am staying up too late because I can't sleep. I have to wake up at 6 tomorrow morning. And I want to look fresh and beautiful. Ugh. I hope my hair turns out really cool! I'm kind of nervous but I'm sure it will be fun.

-1 cup of white berry blossom tea with a bit of milk and sugar
-1 brown toast with butter, peanut butter, and raspberry jam
-1 caramal skim latte
-1 salmon and cucumber sandwich
-2 pickles
-most of a pumpkin cream cheese muffin
-tons of glasses of water
-1 cup of green tea
-1 cheese smokie hotdog with saurkraut, relish, bbq sauce, ketchup, and mustard
-2 pieces of gummy candy
-0 candles, scented or otherwise ;P