Current mood:

blah

...and a couple of weeks go by.
I've been having an up and down half a month. Starting to work full-time again was a bit rough on me and having completely different hours from Matt is kind of a bitch. I'm starting to get used to it so things are getting better and I do like working later in the day but I'm hoping as time goes by I can get rid of my "new person" status and finally get rid of all closing shifts. Cuz I like closing but I like being with Matt better.

Me and Matt have had a couple big bad fights but I think we're hopefully going to be alright now. I don't really want to get into details because I still feel kind of tender about it. I think we just need to work on communication what with having different schedules and patterns now.

We went out on a really fun date a couple weekends ago though. We've been making the most of the days off we do have together, even if they are few and far between. We're ahead on reading Harry Potter now so that's been really fun. Also with our tax money back we're going to be making some really fun buys in the next little while! I'm hoping to get a decent bike to use to get to work and Matt's hopefully going to be buying us a nice tv and a wii!! So that will be mucho cool. I'm also hoping I can go visit my family at the end of June so we'll see how that all pans out. ;)

And me and Robyn went out hiking on the weekend and it was super fun! Something I'm hoping we can do more of as summer comes, along with hitting the beach of course. ;D So yeah I've been doing pretty well...but I haven't really felt too inclined to write about it, thus the semi-hiatus. I don't know. Things feel kind of transient lately for some reason. It's like I can't hold onto my feelings or thoughts and it's a bit unnerving.

I've been thinking a lot about my characters again and about painting. But I'm still too scared to really do anything. I'm working on changing that and hopefully something will come out of it this time.

And I've been feeling vain lately I suppose. I just feel even more insecure about my weak chin because I hate how in so many pictures I look like I have a squat face. Just chubby and ugly. It's really not fair because I'm thin but my face just feels like a smushy little ball of dough on top of my long neck. I kind of want to get a chin implant. And just admitting that and typing it out makes me feel like a really lame, vain loser. Ah well what can you do I suppose.

I'm rambling now and not really feeling too good about it. Basically, moral of the story is that my mood keeps bouncing up and down and I feel out of control. I'm going to have a shower and get ready for work.